I remember that time in college when people started posting photos of their acknowledgment pages from their theses before graduation to express their gratitude to the people who contributed in their college lives. Fortunately, we did not have to go through the tedious thesis process in Med school and this is also why I did not have the opportunity to thank the many, many people who assisted me in accomplishing my clerkship year.
I need not to expound on this. I would write a much more heartfelt message on graduation day. Know that your greatest contribution in my clerkship year is not the enormous tuition fee, the understanding of my constant sleepy state and my lack of concern of what on earth is going on at home– it is your presence that inspires me each day. You have no idea how your hugs transform me into some kind of super woman in an instant.
When I was enrolling for clerkship last year, I did not care much who I was going to work with because I have always believed that it did not matter to me. I always tell peers that we do not get to choose the people we are going to work with when we become residents, consultants, etc. While this fact is still true, I think that after a year of working with this prime, it is still better to have people you can rely on. This is how I felt the whole year. It is impossible to be able to do everything on your own and it just feels reassuring that this family is always ready to assist you, even without any word of request.
We may not miss all those sleepless duties and endless errands because we would still end up doing the same for the rest of our lives, but I will surely miss the time when we are simply hanging around, having fun. I love how different all members of this group are but how similar we are when we work together. I love how we turned out to be really much like brothers and sisters who do not wince a little when we talk about the grossest things. I love how most of us talk about our issues and that we are close enough to criticize each other without getting anyone hurt in the process. I simply love this prime. 🙂 I think that I would have survived clerkship being with another prime but I do not think that it would have been as awesome without you guys in it. You guys will always be my beloved OTP– One True Prime. ❤
Senior Clerks, PGIs, Residents and Consultants
It is not a secret that being a physician is a difficult job but I was not able to realize how I have so little knowledge of the job until I worked with actual residents and consultants. Difficult is really an understatement. Whenever I see hate comments against doctors online, I feel sad. If only people would know about how much these people are sacrificing to help their loved ones then they would not have said any of those hurtful words.
I was a little sad when some upperclassmen told me that clerkship is almost all work, no study. What drives me is learning and knowing that there would not be much opportunity to learn the theories made me a little disappointed. However, most residents and consultants really take time off their very busy schedules to teach us and I am very, very thankful for that. Most of them value teaching future physicians. Moreover, these mentors do not only teach us theories and skills. They also teach us so many things that are beyond our text books, they teach us how to build our character as a doctor. While some of us loathe some residents for being strict with attendance, paper works, and monitoring, I feel grateful. Being a physician requires a huge amount of discipline and time management. I think that there is no better time to learn these things other than clerkship. I do not know what kind of doctor I ought to become but I want all my mentors to know that every single one of them will always be a part of that physician.
From the nurses, nursing aides, medical technologists, dietitians, pharmacists– everyone in the hospital, maraming salamat po!
There were many times that I felt annoyed by the eternal errands but when I think about it, those were opportunities to learn and I am grateful for them. Thank you to all the staff who taught me so many things about how things work in the hospital. I remember that I started as a really clueless clerk who did not even know how the metal patient’s chart work, how to even turn on the IV line, how to operate hospital beds, how to understand residents’ handwriting, how to properly gown myself in the OR, etc. I could only offer thanks to all those staff who patiently taught me without making me feel really small for knowing so little. Thank you for approaching us with respect and understanding us when we really feel very tired.
Many of us feel hurt whenever patients tell us, “Pinag-aaralan niyo lang kami.” whenever we make mistakes. However, this is the sad truth. We really learn from our patients. This is why I could only offer my gratitude and apology to all the patients that we encountered because all of them gave us a certain amount of trust and patience even when we committed multiple errors.
Madams and Sirs, you may not know what you have done to contribute to our journey into becoming physicians but I really want to thank all of you for your trust in our service. You do not know how much you move us whenever you thank us for a job well done. You unknowingly give us strength and confidence in the craft that we are still starting to learn.
Maybe it’s because I have such a boring life but I consider my clerkship year as the best year of my life so far. I have discovered so many things about myself, learned so much from the best mentors and from various experiences, met so many amazing people– all in a span of 365 days. I would not want to do this year all over again because it sure was exhausting, but it would probably the year I would always look back to and smile. It is the year that showed me why I love this profession and why I would never, ever quit this game.
To everyone about to start the clerkship journey, I can only give you one advice: have courage! A lot of us, myself included, had zero hospital experience that everything felt new and unfamiliar. Everything would stem from a little bit of courage. Do not be afraid to make mistakes but do your best every single time even in the most ‘menial things’ like monitoring. You have no idea how doing everything right and with passion can actually change a patient’s life.
To all my batch mates from Natus Salvare 2017, finally, after our 365th hospital day, we are now ordered ‘May Go Home’ and ‘To Come Back as full-fledged MDs’.
This is Clinical Clerk Ayuyao now dozing– I mean, signing off.